[mood: emotional]
[now playin': Take On Me - A1]
I PASSED!!!!!!!!!!
Yeah. I'm happy I passed. But I'm disappointed at me not performing up to my own expectations. And for those who saw me cry like shit yesterday for like and hour plus,
I DID NOT FAIL! -.-
Sorry to disappoint you. *rolls eyes* Anyhoos, I'm still eligible for Psychology in Np & TP. I do hope to get in one of them! I really do!! Sigh..I shouldn't have been too complacent. Anyway, At least I've gotten an A for something right? Lol. To be honest, I still can't accept my results and I don't want to. But that's being ridiculous! I know....
Anyway, I really thank all those that were with me when I cried really badly. Sorry to those who I snapped at. Thanks for all those calls and messages and all. I really am touched. And I'm better now, thanks. Oh, Thanks Dylan, YongGui & Hafizah! Thanks Crist & Sarah for being there when I needed y'all the most. I love you both to death! Haha. & I wanna thank all the teachers who have taught me over the past 4 years. There are those that I have done proud (my Combine Humanities which I got an A for!) and those that I've disappointed. I've honestly learnt my mistake and I VOW not to carry on this way. I swear! Special thanks to Mr Siva, Mr lathif, Mr Dinesh and Mrs Tay for talking to me yesterday and knocking sense into my thick and stubborn head. I'm really sorry Mrs Tay and Mrs Lee for disappointing you both. I don't understand why the outcome was like that but I did try my best but I guess my best wasnt good enough. I'm really sorry.
I'm sorry for disappointing my family (especially mummy) and of course, MYSELF! I'm so disappointed in my grades. Except for my humanities and F&N. What I can say is that I did try my best and I worked hard but the one thing that went wrong was...
I WOKE UP A SECOND TOO LATE!
Yeah. I started to realise too late. That was completely my fault. I'm facing the music right now. I don't blame anyone cos this is MY FAULT and I deserve it. But what I also deserve is a second chance to get into a course I want and me to prove that I have become more hardworking.
Anyway, I can't text message anymore cos I've exceeded a 1000messages and to think...IT'S ONLY THE 13th of the month!! OMG! How am I going to survive?!?! And I'm waiting for PayDay cos I wanna buy a new phone - LG KS360. Yeah. So...PAY DAY! HURRY!!!!!!!!!! And If I don't reply your msgs, don't be shocked. LOL. Call my cell instead okay? LOL.
Oh and I had A GREAT SURPRISE just now! Haha. Ben came to Popular! Haha. I haven't seen him or talked to him face-to-face for a LONGGGGG time! I was really happy to see him. Oh yeah, and thanks Ben for being there when I needed you and encouraging me throughout all the shit that's been going on. THANKs! You better not lose contact with me! Oh second thoughts, you won't dare to. MUAHAHAH! *grins widely*
Till now, I think Ben's the best out of all the guys I've befriended or known. He's still number 1. LOL. Got ranking man! Haha. WC's unhappy that I said Ben's better looking and a better person than him. Tsk Tsk. Petty guy. Haha. And I bet I didn't mention about yesterday. Okay so I was wailing and crying buckets full about my shit results and then suddenly I looked around and
Me: Where's ben? Where's ben? I want to talk to ben. Sarah, help me find for him, PLEASE!
Sarah: *looks around* he's not here babe
Me: No! I want to talk to him. Crist, where is he? *cries*
And a split second later, Ben texted me asking how I was. And I called him. I was about to cry all over again man. But I couldn't talk long also cos my mum kept calling and calling. I was so thankful he texted me. So accurate man! Just as I wanted to talk to him. haha. Oh OH! And like I'm not gonna forget my loony pal - MITHRAN! He's also another awesome guy I know that's been there for me. Thanks dude!! :D
And I was up till like 4am(?) chatting on the phone with Crist and I overslept. I was supposed to wake up at 9am to get ready for work but I only woke up at like 9.43am when Dylan texted me. Thank goodness he msged me! I panicked when I saw the time. I thought today was a weekene (which meant I had to be at work by 10am) and called the office to let them know I'll be late. And no one picked up. So I checked my schedule and realised today was a WEEKDAY! -.- Silly me. And I left home at like 10.25am? And I reached work early (cos I had to report at 10.45am or earlier) and was there at like 10.34am? Haha. To think I rushed to dry my hair and use the lotion and yada yada yada. Haha. Everyone already knew my results before I told them cos of some people who spread it. Anyway, who cares? Like what Xin Xin and some others said, I'm the GOSSIP QUEEN! Of course people would want to know my results right?Haha. Everyone congratulated me and all I faked a smile although I was ashamed. haha. Silly me. I think they could see I wasnt too happy. It was only when I ate Macs and had a long talk with Javin that I cheered up. HAHA. And WeiCong's silly antics made me laugh so hard! Steven's nonsense made me smile and laugh so much that I think I'm gonna have abs soon! Haha. Teasing Desmond and listening to his lame replies was like the joke of the day luh! And the best was when Javin, Sammi and I went to singtel to see cellphones....I spotted the lovely LG KS360 phone! I got damn high luh! REALLY HIGH! And I went all crazy. And the part that made me even happier was finally talking to ben (although I did most of the talking and like I always say, he's a man of TOO LITTLE WORDS!). haha. Work was really slackish today! I even had time to discuss things with Yong Gui on the phone! HAHA.
Okay, I'll update more soon. Nights~
Anyway, I'm sorry that I don't want this to continue. You're one of the bestest guy I know but I'm not good enough. This is the first time I'm saying this to a guy. But really, I feel I'm not good enough. The feeling when I'm with you is wonderful but...something's missing. You're a great guy. You'll meet that girl in time to come. I know you don't wish to hear this right now because you think I'm saying this because of my results and that I'm emotionally unstable and all. But I've thought about it. And maybe right now, it's time for me to learn to be more independent and stay single for a while. I've taken you for granted and i know you're willing to give me time to think it through but...I can't. Not now at least. Maybe I can accept you in time to come but not now alright? I'm sorry. I'm really sorry. I know how you feel. I swear I'll still be your good friend no matter what.
