Tuesday, March 31, 2009

No, I've listened to your bullshit for as long as I can remember "A". Now YOU listen to ME! The person YOU despise ISN'T me. And FYI, I HAVE EVER EVER DESPISED YOU! You don't despise, we both know that. & it's YOU who despises YOURSELF for despising ME. What I do with my life is NOT your call. So why don't you just go home and CRY OUT LOUDLY and go complain to whoever it is that you wanna complain to that DIYANA DOESN'T GIVE A FUCKING SHIT ABOUT YOU ANYMORE! Cos I've put up with your tears and all for much too long that now, it's the limit. I've always been the one feeling bad everytime you cry. And yet you let me down time and time again and you still say I'm heartless?! Well, now to think of it, I should be. You've known me well enough to know my strenghts & weaknesses in a relationship and ya know what? I say BRAVO! And then I'll say...WHO THE FUCK CARES?! It was all over 4 freaking years ago. I know I was rash & impulsive and it was my fault. But if you think you can keep me beside you using that to EMOTIONALLY BLACKMAIL ME, friggin' hell! You OBVIOUSLY DO NOT KNOW ME! My life doesn't revolve around yours or vice versa. It's suffocating.

I thought after Ed being our middleman, things would get better, or so it was until you had to open your big, fat gob on who I should & shouldn't date. Oopsie, please remind me who you are in my life right now? Oh wait, I just remembered - A NOBODY! I know you're bound to read this, so will Eddie. I know i'm being OH-SO-FRIGGIN'-HEARTLESS and BITCHY right now. But I don't give a shit. Get it? 

Okay, I'll say it SLOWER...

I. DO. NOT. GIVE. A. BLOODY. SHIT!