mood: emo-shittified
location:
now playin':Cannonball - Damien Rice
When I see you, I feel comforted. This is so stupid. Non-logical. I want to hold on so badly when everyone else tells me it's high-time I let go. All these while, I'm the one suffering. People tell me you're a jerk and not worth all that I'm feeling. But every time you talk to me, I re-consider giving up because....i pin all my hopes on that tiny chance.
This is so damn ridiculous! If I could just cut out my heart and stuff it in the freezer, I really would. I want to be cold and leave you there all by yourself. I dont even wanna talk to you. In fact, to put it harshly, I want you to suffer the way I have.
You can't even make up your mind what you want and yet you want me here. These past months, I thought I've moved on, in fact, it was a lie I chose to believe to be true. And everytime I move on, you come back to me. And my emotions get swayed over and over again. I want to turn back time, but I can't. I wanna freeze my heart so I dont have to feel, but I can't. I wanna delete you off my life, but I can't bring myself to do so.
CAN YOU TELL ME WHAT TO DO THEN?
These past few days (or even weeks), I've been asking myself WHO AM I TO YOU. And I don't even know the answer and you don't seem to know either. And now people are asking me WHO ARE YOU TO ME. And I can't seem to get an answer to that either. In fact, the more people question, the more I seek to know the answers within myself.
And now, I just want to pretend I don't feel anything because I DONT WANT TO FEEL ANYTHING. And this is another lie, I'm prepared to believe to be true. So world, please shut up and let me be in denial. I'll forget this ever happened. I'll let it all go. I can't continue this way.
This is so damn ridiculous! If I could just cut out my heart and stuff it in the freezer, I really would. I want to be cold and leave you there all by yourself. I dont even wanna talk to you. In fact, to put it harshly, I want you to suffer the way I have.
You can't even make up your mind what you want and yet you want me here. These past months, I thought I've moved on, in fact, it was a lie I chose to believe to be true. And everytime I move on, you come back to me. And my emotions get swayed over and over again. I want to turn back time, but I can't. I wanna freeze my heart so I dont have to feel, but I can't. I wanna delete you off my life, but I can't bring myself to do so.
CAN YOU TELL ME WHAT TO DO THEN?
These past few days (or even weeks), I've been asking myself WHO AM I TO YOU. And I don't even know the answer and you don't seem to know either. And now people are asking me WHO ARE YOU TO ME. And I can't seem to get an answer to that either. In fact, the more people question, the more I seek to know the answers within myself.
And now, I just want to pretend I don't feel anything because I DONT WANT TO FEEL ANYTHING. And this is another lie, I'm prepared to believe to be true. So world, please shut up and let me be in denial. I'll forget this ever happened. I'll let it all go. I can't continue this way.
PS: I KNOW, MY BLOG IS LIKE QUITE AH-LIANISH. STFU. I LIKE PINK.
2 comments:
Who r u talking about ? some1 in RP ? n ur blog vry pink (=
HAHA! yes. very pink! :D Erm..it's just someone i've got something for. :)
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