When the mind says YES and the heart says NO

mood: cranky
location:
now playin': The only exception - Paramore

Today's the first day of the new school year. Nice. It was a good day. Besides the fact I'm still tired from partying last night @ the Jam & Hop. 3days of FOP have been really awesome. This year's bunch of freshies are (Y) awesome!Thanks to them, the performers, Reyna, Drew, SLs, committee and everyone.....

SHL WON THE PRINCIPAL'S CUP.

WE CAME OUT ON TOP!

1ST school in RP!

WE BEAT SCHOOL OF __________ HANDS DOWN. MUAHAHA!

(if you know which school I'm referring to, good! if not, dont bother guessing. HAHA)

So yes, we partied like mad. Moshing sucks like ducks fuck. I fucking swear. I was like shoved here and there. Raizen is scary like fuck when he moshes! Clement also! hahahah. Thank you Adam, Thomas' friend whose name idk, Rendall, Saffwan, Don (who then MIA), Steph & the other guys who took good care of me & protected me during the moshing. Yall are the best. (L) I think I would have prolly died there if not for them. They were really sweet to bother taking care of me, i swear. :) Partied like mad since like the next day we had school means we can party no more. :( so partied. sent the freshies off to collect their bags, cheered, debrief & then cabbed home straight. great day :)

Woke up today to a new academic year. Met Kim & the rest. Headed to school and met Marc before heading to class. Class was quite fine. In fact, i think I was DAMN NOISY on the first day of school! haha. But school was fun. all my darling SLs gathered outside my class for both breaks. Made a huge racket! Then we did something that nearly got us into trouble. HAHAHA. Had lunch with them. I love those chaotic people like mad! Havoc like mad. (Y)(Y)

Anyways, I'm glad I've talked things out with many people. It's been a good start. Talked things out with Kim. I'm glad we've ironed things out. Makes me feel better. :) This will work out. It takes two hands to clap. :D

And to you-know-who-you-are, I'm sorry. I don't know how to tell you what I wanted to say in a nicer way. I'd rather you hate me then continue being nice. I just don't want to keep leading you on when I dont even know when I can open up to anyone. It's really unfair to you. It hurts me to tell you that. It really wasnt easy. It's gonna be awkward, I know it will. But soon, we'll be fine, right? But really, you have every right to hate me right now. I'm sorry. :(