Why Am I Sucha Disappointment?

mood: worn out
now playin':Somebody to love - Justin Bieber

Time to reflect.

Reached home at like 8pm after RPU training.I feel quite demoralised. Actually, more of disappointment. I really do feel so pissed with myself. Went on a happy hiatus for like a zillion days and only turning up like once a month for training and now I find myself so behind everyone.

I cringe when i see the disc reaching me and I have no faith that I can catch it. Pathetic, really. I have to learn to make the disc my friend. But other than me not being able to throw & catch well, I think I did better than I expected when it came to running. My stamina has always been my downfall but today, I managed to complete 3/4 of the route around school without looking like a retard that's about to die. (Y)

And when I stopped and i see the rest so far ahead jogging on the spot just waiting for me and then during the drills i keep throwing shitty passes and all, I just feel im an utter disaster. I'm so embarrassing. So disappointing. I want to like dig a hold and hide there till people forget how pathetic I am. And right now, I'm not giving my all because I have to attend drama workshops on Wednesdays. I have to actually decide what I want right now. I can't be giving 50% to both Drama & RPU. It's draining me.

I've to make a decision soon! :(

Anyways, spent last friday with my YOG CEP-ians, radi & elaine. Fun night. (Y) Oh yes, it was faisal's birthday too! Major photo update soon, I swear! :D YOG Team Leader training last Saturday. I was damn high. There was this model-like hawt guy. (Y) Nice to have an eye-candy. HAHAHAHHAHAH. Made new friends like less than a minute after stepping in the place. (Y) More photos to be uploaded, SERIOUSLY. Sunday was spent with family. Had pizza hut for dinner. Mad i tell you! bro spent over 100bucks on food from pizza hut. (Y)(Y)

Okay, I'll end this post with some of the photos taken with my class like last Thursday. :) I promise I'll upload some major photo spams soon!