Take a Step In

Sometimes, I'm better off not being alive (I don't really like saying DEAD. idk why). Because not only am I a burden, but a failure as well. Or at least that's what the world tells/shows me. Everything I do is never right. I try and try and fail and I try all over again but I just still fail so miserably. I tell myself to get right back up and try again. But sometimes.....

that's just not enough.

I'm done trying to prove my worth. I'm done trying to always be the "bigger person". I'm done trying to suck it all up and pretend I'm fine.

Where's the spunky lil' bitch in me?

Well.....she died.

Even though I have solid updates to post, I can't bring myself to sound like I'm so happy and blog like as if my life has no bad times and I live in a perfect world. That's what people think about my life. And that's not true.

Today, 12am, I remembered why the hell I hate October so much.

Period.

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